Friday, March 30, 2007
ohmygod, i read on FanFiction.Net (according to a very trustworthy aythor, RedRogue) that Renny Harlin, the director of Covenant is gonna make a sequel. i hope there WILL be a cov 2. and i want to see more of Pogue and Reid and WAY more Tyler. oh, and i hope Chase will come back and that he will be good by the end. AND that caleb will struggle with his double-Power. this is going to be interesting. REALLY interesting. can't wait, i'm SERIOUSLY wishing for a sequel. :):):)
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Thursday, March 29, 2007
ok, this is the song rooftops by lostprophets. enjoy.
Lostprophets - Rooftops
when our time is up
when our lives are done
will we say we've had our fun?
will we make a mark
this time?
will we always say we tried?
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your heart out
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your heart out
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your heart out
this is all we got now
everybody scream your heart out
all the love i've met
i have no regrets
if it all ends now, i'm set
will we make a mark
this time?
will we always say we tried?
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your heart out
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your heart out
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your heart out
this is all we got now
everybody scream your heart out
standing on the rooftops
wait until the bombs drop
this is all we got now
scream until your heart stops
never gonna regret
watching every sunset
listen to your heartbeat
all the love that we found
standing on the rooftops
wait until the bombs drop
this is all we got now
scream until your heart stops
never gonna regret
watching every sunset
listen to your heartbeat
all the love that we found
scream your heart out
scream your heart out
scream your heart out
scream your...
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your heart out
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your heart out
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your heart out
standing on the rooftops
everybody scream your...
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ok, i'm seriously pissed off now. cos i'm gonna waste 20-30 minutes of my life tomorrow. here's the situation:
it's sports day tmr and it's supposed to end at 5:30 PM. pupils going home from the stadium MUST be picked up by their parent(s). for me, neither dad nor mum are free tmr since both of them will be working. so i'm supposed to go back to school and THEN return home from there, thus wasting a small bit of my life?! i live just 5-10 mins away from the Yishun Stadium! why should i go home only at SIX when i can get home by FIVE-FORTY?! 20 mins is A LOT OF DIFFERENCE. in 20 mins, you can have a shower and eat about half your dinner, or ALL of it if you're a v fast eater. if you still hve time left (in 20 mins), you can sit down and read a few pages of a good book or watch some TV. see what a DIFFERENCE 20 minutes makes?! these teachers are DELUDED, i say. they still think we are young and innocent angels who still need parental guidance or else we'll get abducted by psychos. i tell you we're NOT, except for that young part. but many of us, esp the P5s and P6s, are mature enough to take care of ourselves. we CAN go home on our own, if our parents are working. THAT, i say, is the f*^%ing problem with many adults - they think that, as long as we are under thirteen, we are pathetically immature but we grow up overnight from our thirteenth birthdays onwards. adults have NO IDEA.
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
during CLC (chinese language club) today, we were debating and today's topic was "There are no bad parents in the world". we girls took the opposing stand and the guys took the supporting stand. and today i discovered that the boys are COMPLETELY APATHETIC. so a couple of girls (they have a right to their privacy, so i'm not going to say who) kinda talked about some family problems. and because they are talking about sth so personal, they kind of... cried. not out loud, just that they were... shedding tears, to best put it. and guess what the guys did. instead of empathizing with them, they were being completely apathetic and were grinning and kinda laughing. we girls didn't do that lah. sure, these kinds of problems don't happen to them but that doesn't mean that they should laugh at those who DO have these problems, right? these guys are unfeeling b*******. damn them.
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Tuesday, March 27, 2007
gt a few responses to the prev post. they all KISIAO one. but they still rock. cos i'm also kisiao. :) see? birds of a feather flock together.
anyway i LEGALLY downloaded the vid for Thnks Fr Th Mmrs. love that song! and the video is SUPER NICE. to download, just go HERE for the download. either an iPod version or a Quicktime version. for vid sypnosis go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thnks_fr_th_mmrs. if not just see this shortened vid sypnosis:
patrick whispers to pete "Are you sure about this?", to which pete responds, 'This guy's a f*%#ing visionary.'
The band begins playing the song on a stage, and as patrick begins to sing, a voice yells cut! It's the director who is really a monkey. he walks up to the band and says to them, "You guys are a joke. I should've gotten panic! at the disco!" he sits and then allows the band to keep playing. they start to play the opening parts of the song and then the vid shifts to backstage. in one scene a monkey is playing andy's drums and he tries to take his drum sticks back but a security guard comes in and takes Andy away. another one is Patrick playing a monkey in a game of chess and patrick loses to the monkey. the vid switches between the stage performance (with the director showing them how to do cool moves, properly) and backstage. pete sprays some TAG body spray on himself and a pair of monkey hands come up around him. he look v confused. but cute.
pete then has a kissing scene with a woman. he leans in to kiss her and the director yells cut, and scolds him for not attempting to kiss her right. The monkey proceeds to show pete the correct way to do so, but he walks off, getting rly pissed off.
pete is then shown packing bags to leave, but the woman walks in and kisses pete. the evil monkey director spies on them, cos this is rly a ploy to get pete to stay.
fob is getting rly frustrated but they continue to play the song anyway. Joe Trohman executes his signature "Trohmania" move on stage (FYI, Trohmania is TOO COOL. LOVE IT), and the evil monkey director yells "Primadonna! Stick to the choreography!" and then "Pete! You idiot!" EMD (evil monkey director, in case you haven't figured it out yet) leans next to the woman and begins stroking her hair. pete snaps and destroys the set, like banging the mike stand on the stage (which is ultra cool. hardcore!). the monkeys then run around everywhere. lol. retribution. the last scene shows pete banging his bass gutar into the giant B in the F.O.B. sign thing, which falls off. SUPER COOL.
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Monday, March 26, 2007
Well well well. my previous post has got a couple of comments, which are mainly disapproving. i don't have any other avenues to write personally. i can't keep a pen-and-paper diary 'cause it's way too dangerous. ya know, my sister. not to mention that i've *cough* read her diary before and found out some rather interesting details of her personal life *cough*.
oh well, my sister's lucky. at least her friends are mature enough not to tease her whenever she talk abt sth v personal. if i even MENTION him in passing, the rumour mill starts grinding. boyu, no offence, but why is it that if you can blog about the guys in your life in detail multiple times and not get teased badly, then why can't i? must i be stuck in this situation forever? there are some things which just NEED to be said publicly and some things which must not be said. the previous post belongs to the former category. seriously, I NEED A FREE LIFE! a life controlled by others is pointless and dumb. get your own lives, people. GET YOUR OWN LIVES AND DON'T TAKE CONTROL OF MINE!
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Sunday, March 25, 2007
i'm seriously going to confront my personal demons and talk abt someone you guys LOVE teasing me about...
so. him. sometimes i just hate him. why? he blatantly ignores me all the time, unless you guys make some degrading comment about him and he gives us the "wth" look. but i can't let go. even if i want to. i know i'm being stupid here by holding on blindly. but i'm beyond caring already. maybe you can say i'm emo. in fact, i guess that when it comes to him i'm definitely showing my emo side. but it's so hard to let go. boys never know if they're wrecking hearts, as nadia once said. i laughed at that when she said it, but now i agree with her. and i'd like to add on, "but it's almost impossible to let go." so now it's "boys are heart-wreckers but it's almost impossible to let go."
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as you can see i added some songs to the current 'Blog Radio' (which is really radio.blog.club) but yeah, you get the point. anyway the song lyrics i'm posting is from the latest song, Empty Apartment by Yellowcard. Enjoy.
Yellowcard - Empty Apartment
call me out, you stayed inside
one you love, is where you hide
shot me down as i flew by
crash and burn
i think sometimes you forget where the heart is
answer no to these questions
let her go, learn a lesson
it's not me, you're not listening
now can't you see something's missing?
and you forget where the heart is
take you away from that empty apartment
you stay and forget where the heart is
someday
if ever you loved me you'd say
it's okay
waking up from this nightmare
how's your life?
what's it like there?
is it all what you want it to be?
does it hurt when you think about me
and how broken my heart is
take you away from that empty apartment
you stay and forget where the heart is
someday
if ever you loved me you'd say
it's okay
it's okay to be angry and never let go
it only gets harder the more that you know
when you get lonely and no one's around
you know that i'll catch you when you're falling down
we came together but you left alone
and i know how it feels to walk out on your own
maybe someday i'll see you again and
you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend
take you away from that empty apartment
you stay and forget where the heart is
someday
if ever you loved me you'd say
it's okay
it's okay
it's okay
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ystd was INNOVATION DAY at nps. thanks to the rest of my grp, our work of 1-and-a-half weeks wasn't wasted! we cld display our presentation. 6E's main attraction was the bottle filter by tasha's group, plus their drawings of models. the water tt came out frm the bottle filter was yellowish. eep. and we had A LOT of accidents. had a few 'longkang moments'. haha. i think there was even a mosquito, i think. anyways, in the end right, only one or two members from each grp was left save for my group. out of the total seven members with six who came (rongfang didn't come), five were left! haha. but still our grp did pretty well yeah? hope tt nxt project work will be MUCH better. =)
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Friday, March 23, 2007
decided to do either a TylerOC or ReidOC fic after i'm done with FBOW (For Better Or Worse). Working titles, working summaries, bold for ReidOC fic and italics for TylerOC:
Perfect Illusion
Lexi Aradia is one of a rare race of Power wielders, and she has always resisted living dangerously with the Power. But she can't resist when it comes to the Sons of Ipswich. Especially when the Son in question is Reid Garwin.
Twist of Fate
Aster Kendra is a seventeen-year-old witch with one hell of an attitude, while Tyler "Baby Boy" Sims is a goody-two-shoes teenage warlock nearing Ascension. When Aster transfers over to Spenser Academy, she finds herself drawn to the Sons of Ipswich - especially Tyler.
These ideas are yet to be drafted and outlined, but it IS evident that both the heroines of the fics do have Power. No damsel-in-distress situations. Cheers!
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after working for 1-and-a-half weeks, my group wasn't selected for the PBl presentation tmr. on minday, we'll be doing our own project first. i tink mrs cha alr divided us into grps. i hope tt i don't end up with jm or ck. that's all i ask. i also dun wan to be the only girl in the whole grp. hah. so THAT'S all i ask.
today we voted for head prefect. my whole class picked qicheng. like duh... christine is so arrogant and insincere. hope tt qicheng wins the head prefect election. usually gt 3 or 4 candidates lah. this yr onli got 2. wowws.
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Thursday, March 22, 2007
was on FFN (FanFiction.Net) checking out the stories in the Covenant subcategory, and in one page alone I found six ReidOC stories, followed by CalebOC stories. realised that ChaseOC stories are practically non-existent. think there's only, like, MINE?! oh, and another one I read a month ago or something. there're more slash stories involving Chase than hetero stories. these very pairings are CalebChase (WTH?!), PogueChase (WTF?!) and TylerChase (WTHF?!?!?!?!). sarah should probably be suffering a heart attack if she reads this. she claimed that she wasn't breathing about 10 times when i told her how we had labelled certain guys in the class to the Covenant boys in terms of personality. if THAT can make her stop breathing, reading about weird, WTHF-worthy pairings will probably cause a couple of heart attacks. she's gonna murder me anytime soon. i'll bet you.
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just remembered sth. GUITAR LESSONS. had ours on monday. our teacher is Mr Yus. he's okay lah. the lesson was okay. but the guitar was really small and it wasn't tuned at all. best sound it could produced sounded like a damn faint whisper. stupidity. i haven't picked up MY guitar for a while. tad too... dangerous? the crack is small but still noticeable. :( oh well, hope i can play some songs soon. wanna play sugar we're going down one day. kuan plays it really well. haha. only one too! nice songs!
i also decided that there'll be no breakup scene in the fic. can't bring myself to do it. too depressing. but the ending won't change much. =)
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up to my neck in PBL
HELP!!! pbl presentation's coming up on SATURDAY. we are not well-prepared. and i have a problem with SPEAKING TOO FAST. tt ALWAYS happens. wish i was MORE eloquent. must practise MORE MORE MORE! ask myself lots of questions. and have the team WORK TOGETHER. MUST REHEARSE until we can dream about presenting it fluently.
ok. maybe not.
but still! today's trial presentation didn't go too well. feel so pissed. other groups did a whole lot better. argh. and must get the whole team to answer questions instead of just me. chih yun is a great supporter, but other than that i'm alone when it comes to QUESTIONS. alright. gotta go. good luck to me, my group members n every PBL group.
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007
I suddenly remembered something... Today, soon before lunch break, I was talking with the boys. Combined, they are a little less annoying than Sarah. At least they don't b*tch about ME. So we were talking about how nice Ms Serene is to us and Adithya and I were exchanging the wallet cards that Ms Serene made for us. Zong Yao was searching in his wallet for the wallet card and when he DID find it, he didn't want to show it to us. Haha. Jia Xuan said that he'd show us the card tomorrow, 'cause he didn't bring it today. So then we were just kind of... chatting in a way. Guess that some boys (FYI, four in total, one not mentioned here )actually aren't as bad as I thought ;)
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Today we finished up our PBL. It wasn't easy, but it was definitely a little more productive compared to the otrher time when the girls and I were doing it at my house. Aah. Well, we haven't exactly finished it up yet, since there's the PBL powerpoint left to complete, but I just have to copy the info and I'll be done. Cheers!
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Monday, March 19, 2007
I decided to add a couple of songs, namely The Reason by Hoobastank and It Ends Tonight by The All American Rejects. The Reason is a really nice song, and so is It Ends Tonight. And I realised that both songs would fit in extremely well with my fic's storyline. It Ends Tonight would properly fit in with the soon-to-come (maybe in a couple of chapters' times or so) breakup scene and The Reason fits in well with, say, the beginning, the reason why Chase changed for the better. It could fit in the end as well. I've outlined the story a little, just planning out the very basic outline of what each chapter is about. I've FINALLY updated with Chapter 9, so there! Chapter 10 will be mainly about Pogue's Ascension, and I can safely say that the chapter will be kinda long. Hope I can meet my goal of at least 50 reviews by the time I'm done with the story.
Yeah, right.
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Decided to talk about Kuan, the Pete Wentz wannabe. I gave him the nickname after he started to wear his hooded jacket (with the hood over his EYES) and play his guitar in a sort of bass style. I was commenting that he looked like a Pete Wentz wannabe then. Then he took down the hood and put on a cap to imitate Patrick Stump. XD! Personally I think he's a mix of Joe Trohman, Pete Wentz and Patrick Stump. Joe as in backup vocals, Pete as in fashion sense (a la hoodie) and patrick as in rhythm guitarist. That's what he is in his band BALQIOS. The rhythm guitarist-cum-backup vocalist with a thing for hoodies. I think, anyway.
Talking about FOB, Yuhan (Kuan's sis, FYI) and I were talking about the guys of FOB. We agreed that while Patrick had a 'cute' childlike face, Pete Wentz is definitely more shuai. Yuhan only knows Patrick, while Kuan and I can probably recite off the names and roles and whatnot of all the FOB guys. Haha.
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Hey Rena_hater, would you mind telling me the REAL reason why you hate me? I don't need to know who you are, but I don't think that the REAL reason is because I supposedly 'zi kua'-ed. So maybe you can give me the real reason. And maybe, you CAN go around pointing out OTHERS' faults instead of focusing exclusively on mine.
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
I can't wait for tomorrow! The girls are coming over. It's going to be FUN!!! Though, they'll probably be shocked at my music library - 100 songs, 5 by female singers and 95 by male singers/bands! I'm a litte boyish when it comes to music taste. I rarely listen to female singers and listen to a LOT of English rock. I'm a hge fan of English rock since it delves into other topics like life and death (like The Chronicles of Life and Death by Good Charlotte and Welcome To The Black Parade by My Chemical Romance), acceptance and all that. Not just romance, like pop. I'm not really dissing pop music, I'm merely explaining why I love rock music. So please don't take offence! =)
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Argh. My heart cracked last night. Cos my GUITAR cracked. The guitar body CRACKED. I accidentally knocked it against the foot of the bed. My heart damn pain. Sobbs.
Anyway, we're doing PBL and it's turning out to be kinda fun. My group's coming over to my house. Yan Li, Sharlene, Rong Fang, Jocelyn, Jing Yi and Chih Yun are in my group. A lot of people right? Haha. Jing Yi and Chih Yun not confirmed if can go yet. Hope they can go. If we finish ahead of time, we're going to chill out. Listening to music, girl-chat and all that. I'm treating them to snacks too. =)
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Tuesday, March 13, 2007
My guitar is kind of out-of-tune, and I'm not sure how to tune it. I managed to tune the first string yesterday, though. I heard that cheaper guitars tend to go out of tune rather quickly. That has got to suck. Oh well... But I copied down the G major chord, C major chord and D major chord into my notebook. Gonna practise them later.
Recently, there's this "phobia of being alone" thing going on about me. The ones saying that are, of course, none other than OJM, TCK and SXT. Who else? These boys probably have nothing better to do with their own lame lives. We girls are so much more mature than them and we aren't as lame. These three boys, anyway.
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Sunday, March 11, 2007
Okay. After some practice and a load of mistakes (remind me to read carefully next time!) from reading internet guides to guitar-playing, I finally managed the G major chord. I think. My legs are sore from sitting down and my fingers are sore too. My typing fingers. Oh well. You gotta pay a price for everything good. There IS, indeed, darkness in light. But it's in a good way. Gotta rest my poor fingers now. Eep.
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I LOVED THE HOTEL STAY!!!! It's actually Raffles The Plaza. I got the name wrong, but whatever. I LOVE THE ROOM!!! It has two HUGE beds, a glass sink, a bathtub, a huge mirror, a fridge, a CD player, a television and a balcony. I took some photos. I love the Singapore city skyline at night and in the day, though I prefer the beautiful night view. I could see the sea from the balcony! Not to mention the famous Singapore Durian (the Esplanade) and the war memorial. So at first, I took the MRT to Orchard MRT station and waited for my aunt (on my dad's side). I arrived there 10 minutes early, so I was like analyzing people for 10 minutes, like so: "That shirt definitely does NOT go with that pair of jeans." OR "That pair of shoes doesn't match the skirt." Along those lines, anyway. Then when my aunt arrived, we took the MRT to Dhoby Ghaut (dunno if I spelt THAT right. I think I did, didn't I???) and went to Plaza Singapura to buy movie tickets for 'Music and Lyrics', starring Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore. Then we checked out Yamaha for a guitar, but the cheapest one cost $145!!! After deciding that we'd check out another guitar shop today, we went to Sembawang Music Store AND I BOUGHT INFINITY ON HIGH!!! It's the limited edition version of the album, and it includes five FOB Tarot cards. It's just SO nice. I listened to the CD, I love it! Anyway after buying the CD, I bought two books from Times Bookstore: Eldest by Christopher Paolini and The Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom. I finished Five People and I'm about a fifth through Eldest. After buying the books we went to watch Music and Lyrics, which is a GREAT romantic comedy. Of course, it includes music themes. After the movie, we went to More Than Words and I bought a SUPER CUTE tortoise soft toy. Every girl's gotta have SOMETHING that's cute!!! We then went to Carrefour for snacks and then we returned to the hotel. I read four-fifths of Five People - two-fifths before bathing (really, BATHING!!! Not SHOWERING! IT WAS FUN!) and two-fifths after bathing. Then after that I slept. It was already past midnight.
Then I woke up at six forty-five, somehow and I finished up Five People and got started on Eldest before I showered at eight-thirty. Then at ten we went for breakfast-cum-lunch at Cafe Cartel. We then headed to the basement of Excelsior Shopping Centre to check out Davis Guitar, but it's at the basement of Peninsula Shopping Centre. Unfortunately on Sundays it opens at one, so we returned to the hotel, chilled out one last time at checked out at twelve. We went to Spinelli and drank coffee until one-twenty. Then we went to Davis Guitar and we picked a cheap basic guitar, at $85. It's cheap but it's GOOD. It looked better than the black one, also $85. Then I bought the guitar case at $16. I got a free guitar pick too. In total I spent $101 on the guitar. But it was WORTH IT!!! Then after that I went home, reaching home at 2. Damn exhausted. >.<
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Saturday, March 10, 2007
| You Are Death |
 You symbolize the end, which can be frightening. But you also symbolize the immortality of the soul. You represent transformation, rebirth of a new life. Sweeping away the past is part of this card, as painful as it may be. Your fortune: Don't worry, this card does not predict death itself. Instead it foreshadows the ending of an era of your life, one that is hard to let go of. But with the future great new things will come, and it's time to embrace them. Mourn for a while, but then face the future with humility and courage. |
| Your Brain is 87% Female, 13% Male |
 You have the brain of a girly girl Which isn't a bad thing at all You're emphatetic, caring, and in tune with emotions. You're a good friend and give great advice. |
| You Are 52% Open Minded |
 You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself. |
| The Part of You That No One Sees |
 You are aloof, mysterious, and distant. People feel like they really don't know the true you... Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force. Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself. It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose. You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away. |
| Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP) |
 Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving. |
| Your Brain is Purple |
 Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself. |
| You Are 90% Psychic |
 You are so very psychic. But you already predicted that, didn't you? You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others. You're very tapped into the world around you... Just make sure to use your powers for good! |
| You Have a Melancholic Temperament |
 Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything. You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult. |
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I added a new song to the blog: Swing Swing by The All-American Rejects. I decided to take off Sugar We're Going Down, 'cause I felt that regular visitors of my blog should have heard enough of it. Rooftops by Lostprophets is an excellent song too. I REALLY love the lines "Standing on the rooftops/everybody scream your heart out" and "Standing on the rooftops/Wait until the bombs drop/This is all we got now/Scream until your heart stops/Never gonna regret/Watching every sunset/Listen to your heartbeat/All the love that we found". I'm a very "lyrics" AND "solo" person when it comes to music, so that's why I love this song. I also especially like the chorus in Champagne For My Real Friends, Real Pain For My Sham Friends by Fall Out Boy, especially the lines "At least everyone is trying/Everyone is shining". Great songs. Listen to the songs - it won't be a waste of time.
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Friday, March 09, 2007
Oh. My. God. I found STRING versions of Fall Out Boy songs. Which means that there are FOB instrumentals with violins and stuff. It has an eclectic blend of both classical and rock. How SIMPLY WONDERFUL. I love it! =) Currently it's Sugar We're Going Down. Enjoy! =)
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I can't wait for tomorrow, 'cause I'm going to Swissotel for a special early birthday treat tomorrow. I'm also getting my guitar tomorrow. I CAN'T WAIT! Hahhs. But after that the holidays aren't like holidays anymore. THERE'S STILL SCHOOL DURING THE HOLIDAY!!! Oh well, sometimes, things have just got to accepted. =(
Anyway the inspiration for this new blogskin is... well, nothing much, really. Totally random. Or maybe you can say it's kinda based off me. Because, even though I'm a 'dark' person, I can see the light in the darkest of situations. Oh, and the quote "Hope shines the brightest in the darkest of times" comes from the book I Am David by Anne Holm. Well, not EXACTLY from the book. More like the book cover. The red one, with the movie pics. THAT one. On the back of the book cover, there's this line. The one about hope shining the brightest. I decided to use that quote for my blogskin. And I do believe that there is light in the darkest situations, yet there is darkness in the brightest of times. I like contrast, absurdity and abstract stuff. It explains my weirdness.
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Thursday, March 08, 2007
I was thinking... just really thinking... do I do what I do for others, or myself? Is what am I doing what others want me to do? Or do I really want to do what I am doing now?
I mean, for "For Better or Worse", originally I embarked on it as a story I wanted to do, to try and see if there is a different side to evil and if there is really a good side to everyone, even supposedly evil people - and try to personify it. So I did. But now I'm having so much pressure to update, update, update even when I'm not ready. A and S, you gals are PRESSURISING me to update the fic when I'm just not ready. Am I writing for YOU GUYS, or MYSELF? Now I feel that I write for them, not myself. Writing was supposed to be an avenue for me to let out my emotions and stuff, but now it's like its a professional job to write for others. When you treat something as a job, you don't start to see it as a passion anymore. It becomes just a job. Just that. You lose the passion for it. But I want to continue writing - for myself. not for anyone. Yes, I can dedicate characters etc. to others, but whatever I'm doing should be for myself. Not for others.
Wake up, people! Wake up and see the light!
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Wednesday, March 07, 2007
i cannot believe how great my little trick worked out today. i led him into believing that i'd fall for his trick again. so he thought i was stupid. i tricked him right back. almost the same method he used. that'll teach him. HAHA.
i have a weird little phobia. of being alone... in the daytime. i don't mind being alone at night so much as in the day. i like dark stuff - dark colours, life and death and night. call me weird if u wna, i dun mind. i'm also kinda emotional sometimes. hahhs. i like rock music too. haha. despite all that though, that doesn't mean i'm a sadist or smth. i do like the positive side of life. basically i'm a weird, positive, darkness-and-rock-music-loving 12-year-old girl. maybe you'll like me more or less now. i wldn't care so much, really.
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Tuesday, March 06, 2007
ok, i didn't blog for a few days. here're my results (1/2 marks will be written as 0.5):
Eng: 82/95
Maths: 67/100 (yes, i SUCK)
Chinese: 75.5/90
Science: 84.5/90
HMT: 30.60 (that's right, I SUCK AGAIN)
so i'm freaking bad at TWO subjects. gotta work harder. oh well.
i finished 'The Da Vinci Code' by Dan Brown. it's a REALLY good book, but it has a very controversial christian theme. it's one of THE best books ever. read it. oh, and Angels and Demons too. gonna read it someday. =)
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Saturday, March 03, 2007
Fall Out Boy's concert is starting in 11 hrs and 34 minutes. think i counted right. anyway i'm gonna bug kuan abt the concert. heh. buying infinity on high album sometime soon.
i've got to work on For Better or Worse now, BYES.
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Friday, March 02, 2007
hmm. forgot to post a couple of stuff: FOB's having their concert tmr. in 23 hours 54 minutes, to be exact. haha. gonna bug kuan about the concert. lucky guy. hope he remembers to ATTEMPT to get me an FOB autographed pic or smth. haha. and i tthink i'm getting my guitar tmr or on sunday. CAN'T WAIT! haha. byes!
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i'm typing in almost total darkness now. the only light comes from the comp screen. i switched off the orange light, cos it's so annoying. and i'm typing just looking at the screen. haha. it's quite difficult but practice makes perfect. anyway i'm like skipping hana kimi. haha. just gotta use the comp. lols. and i tried typing with my eyes closed. i get the words right about 75% percent pf the time. yays. i saw smth damn weird... on the page for For Better or Worse, it says I got 30 reviews, but when i counted i got only 28 reviews. maybe they just don't update so quickly.
i'm sleeping alone tonight. wonderful to lie alone, staring up at the dark ceiling and the darkness all around me, dreaming about my days, past, present and future and finally falling into a peaceful sleep...
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well well well. i'm FINALLY done with my exams!!! dunno my scores yet. HOW MUCH I MISSED THE COMP! hahhs. anyway i'm typing in my room filled with orange light, cos the bulb for the white light probably fused. feels so warm and weird. orange light IS weird when you aren't used to it. acquired taste? guess so.
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